fortune...

what am i waiting for..

i do not get the picture so...

i am handing myself over

to what, i had always ignored 

or it's more like 

i am being called as default...

perhaps, problem was lying with me only

has no one left, singing a song

i had been trying a lot, perpetually

practices were getting wrong

which could hardly heel one's wound

someone named me as "foregone"

where do we lack behind

what!!! actually who is enforcing this 

which i really or no one likes

one very close to my side said

had you been more conspicuous

perhaps you could get, what deigned

or had you been more fortuitous

perhaps you would get, whatever blessed

what is for that then

i suffered, i cried in all lonely nights

what is for that then

when i was harassed, i tolerated all

what is for that then

when i practiced, faced failure damn

you talk me of fortune

you suggest me of being stoic

what had i not been through?

what had i not been seen?

sufferings and infliction were two of kind

which i could not never keep off from

blessings and kindness were two of kind

which i could never expect of...

it is not still easy

to live a life....

where i see

what i did not succeed....